I remember when Jane was younger, even just three months ago, when I was sort of anxious for her to get older. I didn’t feel like I had her figured out at all, naps were all over the place, I generally just felt like I still barely had any idea what I was doing.
It isn’t like that anymore. All of a sudden it seems like her baby-ness is slipping away and having a walking, talking toddler who won’t nurse to sleep in my arms anymore is coming up very soon.
These days things are good. Still not easy, but really good. I love staying at home with her, we’re in a pretty dependable routine, and her moods are much more predictable.
When I used to have my salaried job in a cubicle at a big company, I would wake up dreading each morning, and ask myself every day what am I going to do with my life, what can I do to change this?
Now I wake up looking forward to each day…and while still sometimes cursing and groaning when I first have to wake up (I am the furthest thing from a morning person), always looking forward to seeing my smiley little girl because she is SO smiley and cute right away in the morning. I never feel like I have to change my life, and that feeling is wonderful.
Her thighs are still scrumptious but right now the back of her little neck is top of my list of favorite body parts:
Anyway, baby developments at this point:
Incredibly mobile and into everything. Just in the past week or so started standing unassisted for a few seconds at a time. Really loves to make a beeline for the two places she’s not allowed to play – in the bathroom and with the wine rack.
Also just recently got her sense of rhythm – she’ll hear music and start doing a little head bopping dance. SO FREAKIN CUTE!
She likes it when we crawl and chase her and also likes the classic peek-a-boo game. She loves to eat, to the point where it’s impossible to eat in front of her without sharing, or there will be a tantrum. I really need to start figuring out regular meals for her because I feel like a bad mother sitting her down with cheerios whenever I need five minutes of peace. Her only regular “real food” meal right now is oatmeal before bed, otherwise we’re still mostly breastfeeding.
Tough choice – nail clipper or cheerios?
It’s so fascinating watching the simple things she is fascinated by – opening and closing a cupboard door, spinning the wheel on a toy car, realizing the cat is a living thing and trying to catch it (at least with my mom’s cat it’s always a chase – not a fan of babies, so she runs as soon as Jane gets close….I’ve never seen her crawl so fast though!)
Looking forward to the next month, I feel like such a cliche saying they grow up so fast, but awww it’s true.