I was looking back at some posts from a year ago and am so happy I kept the blog then because it’s hard to remember what life was like. My entire pregnancy seems like a distant memory now. I can barely remember sitting in my cubicle writing that stuff.
So how has life changed…
I now understand what people mean when they say about babies “it goes by so fast”. It really does, it’s crazy. I was at this baby consignment sale today and saw some little ones and can’t even remember what it’s like to cuddle a newborn in my arms. Jane feels enormous to hold and is constantly in motion trying to grab whatever is in reach, crawl to whatever area she’s not supposed to go, pull herself up to stand on any available surface.
I now understand “mom brain”… fuzzy and forgetful. On the upside, I’m much more forgiving of anyone who takes awhile to return a phone call or shows up late.
We are starting to go to bed earlier…two people who are the perfect match of nightowls, used to leave the house to go to the bar at midnight and sleep at 3 a.m., getting up before noon was considered early. Now realizing the 7 a.m. (and 1 a.m. and 5 a.m.) wake up calls will only leave us feeling like shit the next day, so the earlier we sleep the better.
The best change is loving life as a stay at home mom. It can be really tiring some days, and is work no matter what the day… but I no longer spend my days thinking “I really don’t like my life, how can I get out of this??” like I did when I sat in a cubicle.
I look forward to seeing my girl in the morning, no matter how tired I am, and feel at peace when I’ve nursed her to sleep no matter how cranky she was that day or that she pooped three times and her diaper exploded and I had to wash the sheets and the blankets and her clothes and then after I thought it was all done – omg how did you get all that poo on your foot that you were just about to stick in my mouth when I was nursing you?
It’s all forgiven and I still look forward to tomorrow.
Watching a fight on the computer with Daddy:
Loves standing under the kitchen table: